Friday, August 22, 2008

I"m alive once again......



It takes time to figure it out what is it that keeps you going through all the problems and challenges you meet in your day to day life. Even I took time, but I realized. The same old monotonous life was driving me wild I needed to break free I needed to freak out, shout at the top of my voice get soaking wet in water and let it dry on me, I knew I wanted to have a blast.

It was a normal day, started as usual, woke up late somehow got to college in time. But the day was special in a way, it was a day before the Independence Day. The country was about to celebrate its 61st year of independence. And all I had that day was a plan with my buddies to go to an amusement park bunking the last class of mine. It was cloudy and it rained like hell, I figured out the plan is going to fail finally. Well as the day progressed after second class I left the college, when did I ever care for a class when I have to meet my friends?

We caught each other up at rithala metro station. We were almost wet the roads were flooded and we reached metrowalk mall almost wet to out knees. Hmmmmmm…. The next question arrived was are we really planning to spend 170per head for the park? But as things moved on we bought the tickets and wet in… what the hell I thought… truly I was least interested in the rides and the adventure the park promises to provide. I just paid so that I atleast I can have some good time with my buddies.

It started raining more heavy but who was here today to be dry? We got wet again took one of the most scary rides there was in the park. You see the rides were scary as hell and for those people who have seen all parts of the movie call "The Final Destination" it was an absolute wreck. Amazing I had in my mind.... if we die here we will die together, funny feeling when you are out for fun with you friends but who can really control the mind from thinking what can happen?. I can only say it was my way to console me. It felt really good holding hands and be on that scary ride…well as the pendulum ride was in it 180 degree swing I was scared and caught on to the safety latch like I have never hold anything so tightly……and then suddenly………….

Everything went blank…the screaming the lights everything…for a few seconds I was numb….i was only able to feel the rain drops hitting my face and the breeze against my hair……as the ride took another sweep to push me to the top I suddenly realized I am still alive…I have always been alive and some how I was able to feel the rush of blood in my heart. At once an answer came from within me "yes" this is what I was looking for , freak out when you have the best of your buddies near you…I realized I was the luckiest person alive…..and as the ride took a plunge into the depths a shriek came out of my mouth it was the loudest I have shouted in years I found my grip on the safety latch loosing…and the next moment I was shouting like I never had and my hands were free capturing every little amount of air it can….! It was my day my day with my friends my adventure my way of freaking out……

I realized the place never mattered at all .All that mattered ever was who I am with . After that ride I was on the top of the world….! I had an evening like I never had in my life rain dancing, splashing water ,eating, boating and at the most freaking. I love my friends and most of all I love their company...I don’t think anyone else would have given me the same feeling of being free……I was once again alive breathing and I was able to feel the world around me……..thanks a lot……….but wait whom I am thanking???? They are a part of me now and do you ever thank you hands for letting you pick up the food to your mouth…….??

The only words I have is ……….ROCKON friends…we will have many more moments like this in our life..And we will be together……..today tomorrow always……….love you………..

Karan—the Kauwa

Deepak—the Bunny

Shivi—the Princess

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

JUST READ ON FRIENDS.........it's for you...
and not for those also who never were......

Saturday, April 19, 2008

DEAD........AND STILL BREATHING

Why does it have to hurt inside?
why do i have to cry each night?
i think i have to walk on by..
because i'm starting to loose my sight...

what is it that changed ur mind?
who is it that keeps u blind?
why did you change so fast?
did u really have to leave me behind?

i start to think about all we had
and how it turned this way..
i guess i'll have to leave ur side,
and turn my face away...

although my soul will die..
although my heart will cry..
i've got nothing else to do,
i am hurt deep inside....

but although i'll leave ur side,
you'll always be on my mind..
my heart and soul will ache for you,
every day and every night...

ur a my never ending love ,
the love that keeps me alive...
but it hurts inside.......

Friday, April 18, 2008

DID I....?


Would you say everything you could
do the things that you thought you would
did it ever occur to you that this could be your final day
did you go where you wanted to go
learn about what you wanted to know
did you ever really give something back instead of always taking it

did you find what you're looking for
did you get your foot in the door
can you look at yourself and feel proud of all the things you've done
did you inspire the ones that you knew
make a difference to those who knew you
did you finally figure out what it is that makes us who we are today

did you always give it your best
is there anything you regret
if you could have another shot at it all would you do it just the same
was it all that you thought it could be
are you the person you thought you would be
or did it feel like you were spinning your wheels instead of moving forward everyday.
---DID YOU(HOOBSTANK)

Thursday, April 10, 2008

A PROMISE TO MYSELF


what is it that i want?
where i am heading for?
where i am going to stop?
from whom am i running?

It's a promise that i made to myself long time ago,I WILL HEAL MYSELF i will heal myself.

when innocence gets mixed with blood,when life is mixed with death,
when joy is mixed with sorrow...
when your life is mixed with fustration u try to break free.
you run and run away from all,you run till u are not able to move an inch further u fell tied up,bleeding helpless but still u need to get away.

this pic depicts a phase of my life a phse when i had my run and i'm tied up,bleeding but still i want to run.I know running from ur fear is not a solution but if it makes you happy for the moment why not?

not sure i will heal myself or not but its a promise i made to myself.